To Resolve or Not....

New Year's is upon us very soon and once again it is time to think about New Year's Resolutions. Every year I make the same resolutions and never seem to keep them for more than a month or two. First one I always make and break is my promise to myself to work out everyday and keep to a very healthy lifestyle. That usually goes along with the resolution to lose 30 pounds which never happens! I did manage to lose 16 pounds this year but that was only after gaining 20 during a very stressful period so really I was still up 4 pounds :(
The second resolution I tend to break is my goal to save more money. I really used to be good with saving money and never had less than $3000 in my savings account at one time but now that I am older and life throws more hard balls my way- like car repairs, the need for new household appliances and getting fatter thus needing new clothes- my bank account has dwindled to the point that when I look at the balance I get severe nausea. I am scared what I'm going to do when kids come and we have a lot more expenses...take a deep breath and stop stressing... ANYWAY I am really going to try to keep this resolution this year. I used to always think about a purchase LONG AND HARD before making it and usually decided not to waste the money. I am really going to try very hard to go back to that mentality. I was never one to buy things frivilously and can't believe I let materialism get to me so much that I started wasting money on things I don't really need. AND I have a second job for a reason- perhaps working there a little more often to save the cash would be a good idea...time to let them know I'm available weekends again!
The third and last resolution I always make and break is to keep my house spotless clean. I really hate hate hate clutter and can't stand when the house is messy. I think maybe if it were just me living in the house and there were no husband in the equation my home might be less cluttered and messy. It is really hard to keep on top of things when a small house is storing the lives of two grown adults who both seem to keep everything. Perhaps this year I will be able to stay on top of things and declutter and keep it neat and tidy...i'll cross my fingers and try really hard to keep this one this year. We are no longer having a cleaning lady come twice a month (got to save the $$) to clean so it's really important to maintain a schedule and stay on top of the cleaning.
Now for some new resolutions to think of...how can i improve myself, be a better person, and maintain a healthy relationship with G-d. I think that I will try to talk to G-d daily, refrain from negative thoughts (which really can be a challenge as we talking about stopping a lifetime habit) and look on the bright side of life. Are these things realistic and can I actually keep these promises to myself? I guess only time will tell but with a little help from G-d and my family and friends hopefully I will see a noticeable improvement in myself and my attitude towards life...wish me luck!!